Regret and Afraid

It’s 8th June 2011 today weather is normal. I see the dark cloud in the sky, but there still no rain today. After lunch, I tried to find a new article to post on my blog, but I run out of idea neither find a new article. After I arrived home, and open my laptop watch several pictures on the folder name CAS Memories. It’s the place that I store all the pictures from my high school. Suddenly, I feel regret and afraid.

I feel regret because I don’t write any journal or daily when I was in high school. The reason that I regret because I think if I had written any article when I was in high school, then I would have many articles on my blog that can express how I really feel for my high school. Time is passing really fast; two close friends become two completely strangers. The motto we had on graduation day said, we met as strangers, we grew as classmates, and we leave as friends. This motto seems to be differences because it seem like we leave as friends and meet once again as strangers. It still not what really I afraid yet, as I can’t see what will be in the future. What if two close friends become two enemies, and then I have arrived of my fear.

I regret that I’m not keeping any record of the good or sad time that we have together. I afraid we will forget what we had done in CAS. Now, I want to start my daily book in my university years, but I afraid it will not be as good as my high school years. I being told by my friends, a friend are friends forever if the Lord, the Lord of them. Moreover, a friend will not say never, if a friend need help. It seem like something blowing my mind and chokes me up, I won’t believe this if a friend told me but I face it, and I regret and afraid about it. I don’t want them to be a stranger that pass by my door, say hi and leave me.

So that is all of what I regret and afraid, although I don’t have to be in that way, but I just did. This feeling is excruciating to me.