Some Point of My Life

People have differences stories of their life, some are funny, dramatic, and controversial. I don't know which one is the right title to describe the story of my life, I just simply couldn't describe it. First, I like politics. I really like to listen the political analysis. For example, the hot topic now is about Geo-Politics between United State of America and China. The two giant countries are trying to play a big role in the world. However, they cannot argue direct because each one of them has nuclear weapons that could destroy the world. Therefore, they have to find small countries so that they can influence, and let those countries fight instead of them. On the other hands, China and Russia united together because they afraid the US become the alone great power. Although, China and Russia have conflicted in the past. They have to come together because of some benefit. Now, I found that my family and relative are just like the relation of the great power of those countries. Some of them are like China, US, and Russia because of benefit, they have to come together sometime even they had conflicted in the past. It really like a major politics to me, like a game of chess where they keep one another like a pawn where they play each other for benefit. Therefore, I really feel headache and stressful. I'm really sorry for something like this to happen.    

Go Back to the Airport

Last night, I have a dream which is so real. I feel strange about it, it just takes me back to the airport (December, 2013) when I left my parents to come to study in US. However, there are many things change in the dream because I didn't cry in reality, but in the dream I cried so hard which I couldn't believe it happen because I rarely cry. I feel I miss my parents a lot, and I don't feel like I'm in the dream and more like a time machine brought me back. Then I started thinking of why I have such dream, a lot of thought coming into my mind, maybe God want me to think of my parents, and He want me to know how important my parents are. I wake up in tear that wouldn't believe it happen on me. Beside, there are something really strange happen too. In the dream, I saw I'm back to Cambodia, and people treat me so nice and important, most people want to meet me until I have no time!!! I still wonder why I dream that way, I hope that dream means something in our life so that we can find out later. I know this is not scientific prove, and I'm more into science but I still hope that way.  

Hesitation of My Life

I used to hesitated a lot, for example: things that I want to do but then because of hesitated, I willing to let it gone easily, then  I regretted afterward. However, it won't be the case for now. I willing to do more without hesitate, not even a bit. One of the fact, I already a Junior at Zaman University, Cambodia, and I was not hesitate to drop out, and come to US to restart my study as a Computer Science student. Funny enough, I attending in Normandale Community College, some people laugh at me, they found it funny in the way I made decision. However, they don't know what I had gone through at Zaman University. One of my full-time instructor know nothing about programming, and he control most of the courses I studied. He taught Software Design, I understand the course by self study, read the book, not from his explanation. When it time study operating system, he know nothing again, at this time I can't help myself by just read the book anymore because the topic is too big to do so. Therefore, I got nothing from the course. He also taught Data Structure and Algorithms in Java Programming languages, he doesn't know how to install compiler to run java and compile in the command line interface, but he came to ask me how to install. Then one of students code is not working, he supposed to identify the problem but he don't know what  is wrong, then he came to ask me, "what is wrong with the code?" I looked at it and simply saw two constructors in the same class of Java language, and I told him, "Main class of Java cannot contain two constructors." I feel more hopeless, if my instructor like this, how can I expected to learn more from him? So these are the reasons that I drop out from a Junior of University and come to a community college. I still keeping my goal, I want to get into University of Minnesota, according to Time High Education, U of M rank number 46th world wide in general, and number 38th in technology. 

Things Change

Things change fast enough that somehow I couldn't accept it, but since it is the true then I have no other option. I always thought that I still have a chance no matter how far I am, but it not really the case now since there is someone else that not me. I should take the suggestion from my friend a long time a go, "move on, it won't work." But I'm so stubborn, and insist to stay for some chance. Therefore, I take the consequence...